The scariest thing

is my future. if it is as bright as i hope it will be and if all my dreams come true. My dreams have inspired me to work the hardest i can to achieve what many say is impossible for me to achieve…. and so far it seems like everything is in reach yet so far away. high school is almost over and i have changed my mind about so many thing, people, and ideas. and sometimes i wonder if people are right. maybe i can’t do what i always dreamed. but then i think about it… i have gotten this far. what makes you think i can’t fulfull my dreams? what makes you so much better then me, that you will be able to fulfill your dreams but i won’t be able to? you may stand high on your imagined pedestal but it will shatter and i won’t be there to help you back up on your high pedestal because i will be to busy building mine. so one day, after all my years of hard work building my pedestal and will be able to look at it and say wow, i’ve worked this hard? i did this all? by myself? without you? yeah i will. i will not just build a pedestal but a beautiful castle. with or without you by my side. you choose. i will be here and we can build our beautiful castle together. but just remember it was you who left. i didn’t push you away. you are always welcome in my life and you and i can build our castle together.

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April 12, 2011

When I have fears that I may cease to be
Before my pen has glean’d my teeming brain,
Before high-piled books, in charactery,
Hold like rich garners the full ripen’d grain;
When I behold, upon the night’s starr’d face,
Huge cloudy symbols of a high romance,
And think that I may never live to trace
Their shadows, with the magic hand of chance;
And when I feel, fair creature of an hour,
That I shall never look upon thee more,
Never have relish in the faery power
Of unreflecting love;—then on the shore
Of the wide world I stand alone, and think
Till love and fame to nothingness do sink.

John Keats

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April 12, 2011